Enzymatic

In my tears I drowned for you
when my cries could not grow fingers to    r    e    a    c    h ;
you were apathy wrapped in silent smiles,
which touched and made to feel.

I felt you—discovered you,
like children sent scavenging for
hidden notes and clues;
you were a jagged jigsaw puzzle
lovingly pieced together…

Done in silence,
through studied observations
and tentative smiles aimed at shoulder blades;
you would never grant me access
if you knew my subtle intimacy…
left one-sided and aching like
goodbyes rolled into single nights of warmth.

You were my radiance,
  illuminating internal corners
    until I believed that I, too, could shine as bright;


  _{it appears only some are meant to be the sun.}