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Your love smells like snow
in the deep of August, sucking
me like mosquitoes and you.

damn, you always had a talented
tongue, knowing just what to say
to roll me between your teeth and
keep me there; and I was hoping—
no, trusting— I’d not be crushed.

I should have known when
you raised your bones against me,
when you clattered your molars
together but never bothered hiding
the truth below your belt.

And a part of me says  
I was in love with you.

perhaps I'll always be the sheepskin fool.

I'm passing the time before my appointment with the new psychologist with words... because when I die, I don't want the last thing on my mind to be hate and betrayal. This was more of a journal entry... because I quite enjoy trying to make my thoughts poetic the first time. Without revision. So if it sucks, that might be why. It's actually a challenge that is oddly thrilling, though! :giggle:

I'm sorry I haven't replied to everyone yet. I have an inbox full of messages. I'll try to keep replying steadily. Hope everyone is well! :heart:
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That1PersonYouForgot Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is absolutely beautiful! :love: Instant fave :heart:
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner May 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:rose: Thank you so very much. Your words were just so kind, and I'm so grateful to be the recipient of them!
Best wishes, dearheart, and thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to leave me an amazing comment!
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That1PersonYouForgot Featured By Owner May 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:iconohstopityouplz: You're very welcome! C:
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Oh my. I don't even know what to say. Thank you! I am so incredibly honored and grateful that you thought this piece worth featuring... especially alongside such gifted and beautiful writers! That was a wonderful thing to see, and I am so aware of the miracle of being there.
Thank you, again. Best wishes! and thank you for thinking of little ol me. :rose::heart:
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner May 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
That's a beautiful drawing! Thanks for sharing (:
It really captures the concept of unconditional love. :giggle: I wish the love in this poem was that pure.

Thanks for your time! I really appreciate the comment. :heart:
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couratt Featured By Owner May 12, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
merci :) je vous offre cette belle chanson franšaise traduite en anglais 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzn_qb…
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Litwick-Kindly Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014
This is beautiful, you are beautiful. Some people are interludes, moments of interruption in the bigger stories we are written into. It's funny how we get so caught up by passing power that we neglect to notice the strength of the current we are in. There is a force in you of much strength and this is the kind of poem that can demand honesty of a kind soul. Don't linger in your desert places, love is not fickle or cheap. Love demands honesty and that can be scary and depressing and needy and confusing but there will be someone out there who will understand, someone who is more of a shepherd than a wolf.
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner May 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry I'm late in replying. To be honest, I had to leave this comment for a while... it impacted me so much. You don't even know me, yet you tell these things with such certainty and hope... it honestly made me cry. I'm always unsure, then, how to respond to such care and kindness. I apologize that my words will never come close to the emotion I hold within my chest.
You put such thought into this comment that I cannot help but cherish it. Thank you. I shall try to take your advice in the best ways I can, and I shall try and grow with them. I really appreciate your wisdom and your care. It just means so much. More than you know. :tighthug::heart::heart:

You are wonderful. My best wishes are with you!
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Litwick-Kindly Featured By Owner May 7, 2014
Ah, well now. Your response is a bit gracious and that embarrasses me. Thank you for your kind response and I'm glad I was of a little help. I'll slink away before I ruin the moment trying to sound older and more sagacious than I am. All I have to say is this, your words are spectacular. You've got presence and voice and spirit and you'll touch a lot of people and it'll be a beautiful thing because you've got the language to share your time and your heart. You're not alone, you can reach out and you can put your heart in a poem and people will read your heart, cresting and tiding as you do. People will care about what you've invested in your work and they will treasure your heart even when you don't. Don't hide, my right hand is less than the butterfly flutter of your mind.
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry to embarrass you, but I'm somewhat glad it could draw such a strong response: your words really were a lifeline to me at the time! I think I'm definitely going to write them down somewhere... because I tend to forget the most important things. Your advice was certainly a wonderful thing to grow with, too, and I really hope I can! Thank you for restoring hope and for giving such kindness. Sometimes, I have to wonder if its dead in the world, but then there are always lovely souls, like yourself, who replenish my faith. Thank you a million times over, for I would rather have a damaged faith than one blown out and smoking.
That, and your words have made me tear up again. You seem so sure of some greatness in my mind--or maybe my heart. That... and I suppose I really do take refuge in my writing. I don't let myself show enough to be known, so I suppose that's why I keep the fact that I write secret from most everyone. For I am in my words, all present and ugly, and needy, and whiny, and possibly, in some moments, beautiful.  The fact that my heart can then be seen and even cherished... that did me in. Thank you so so much, you beautiful soul. It's never one's job to cherish a heart, or to build one up, but you are wonderful and beautiful and I do so appreciate your fantastic words. I really hope I can do them justice one day. I  just... your words are so lovely, and I have no further words. I just really hope to embody them some day. Thank you so very much.
(and I must agree. Your right hand is not a butterfly flutter, for it is something more, bound for something higher than that of wings or clouds or cliffsides. I'm not sure I have a name for it yet, but your hand seems something closer to a guiding wind that can push even the perspective of fate, for some, and what an incredible gift that is.)
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Litwick-Kindly Featured By Owner May 26, 2014
in other words don't stop believin'! Hold on to that feelin baby! haha
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:giggle::heart:
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Litwick-Kindly Featured By Owner May 26, 2014
Quite frankly, I know everything I need to know about you to like you. You've got a word in you and it is a kind word and it is a lovely word. We don't always wear our hearts on our sleeves, hearts are meek things but you're braver than your heart. Maybe you think that you're ugly and needy and whiny but we all are sometimes. It is part of what makes you beautiful because even in your weak moments you can make something of value. The world is filled with lies and liars because some people are lies and liars- the lies will attract lies but honesty attracts honesty too. You are beautiful and brave, you're putting your heart out here and telling us that this is really your heart and it is, at least in the present. It is why I like you, because you've introduced this part of you to me honestly.

Sometimes you'll be a liar too, if not here than in the real world- that's alright, it happens. Sometimes the voices out there are louder than what you hear inside and the heart is a meek enough thing to pull you away from yourself when confronted with the world. Sometimes you won't feel that you're beautiful because you'll surround yourself with your problems and that's what you'll see, you'll feel ugly because you'll get dusty walking out there in the dust storms. Beneath all that though, beneath circumstances and the world of liars you'll still be beautiful. Sometimes the voice that says you're beautiful will be small but it'll not stop being true and poems like this will be proof to reinforce it- poems that make people honest and kind and lovely like you are. Quite frankly, I know everything I need to know about you to like you for who you are and not, perhaps, who you tell yourself you are.
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