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Madness slipped inside of me like a hand beneath my blouse—thieving and too truthful—while i find myself in fetals, wondering where Autumn went… crushed beneath someone’s shoes, as i feel crushed beneath these memories?

i’m nobody’s treasure (just a no one in a body), and though this mouth is paralyzed, i scream these words ten fingers, to grasp at everything i’ve lost. But what’s the point? i rise from moondust graves when the sun peaks my head in halos; and i hope, and i pray, that this day is one of life… but every time, i am sent to death in stars and in the shadows of the dark. And i fear i’ll only be disasters, thrown down the stairs ahead of life, while i try to learn to fall in ways that will not break my neck, my arm—my spirit…

but every ‘wild’ needs a ‘broken,’ and i’m afraid He’s beat you to it; mankind just likes it broken.

sometimes i feel like he broke me. and i hate that i let him.

sorry for this pity piece. i think i'm over this... it's just the times that i feel dirty... the times that i feel broken. and sometimes, i think i just blame him, because the only other option is myself.

please just ignore this. i'm tired of being a broken record, when i know everyone is going through far worse. i'll be better in no time! rest assured.

 

(i'm also tired of explaining: i feel i do not have the right. So i shall continue to hide behind these words--a coward:  fav.me/d60tsgn)

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lunar-glow Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2014
It's amazing how easily you can portray what you want to say with such eloquence and simplicity at the same time. The emotion definitely shows in your words, and yet it doesn't drown them out or create an overpowering, rambling mass of sorrow or depression. It's wonderful.
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer

Thank you so very, very much! Your description of my writing was just so beautiful and so touching. To have someone think that of my work just makes me smile and feel good! Thank you. You are very, very kind! :heart:

I hope I continue to write things worthy of such description, and also worthy of your wonder. :tighthug:

(If you ever see anything I can improve upon, please don't hesitate to let me know! I'm always trying to grow where I can [: )

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lunar-glow Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2014
Only excellent writing would earn such a description; try not to be surprised if I leave more messages like that. You are so sweet and actually sincere, unlike so many, and you've got a beautiful talent. I can sometimes write poetry. It tends to come easily, but only at random occasions does it actually turn out to be of any value.

So thank YOU, for your excellent work and your kind words. They mean the world to me.
Have a beautiful day! And keep writing! :love: 

I'll be sure to tell you if there is anything to be improved upon. Though I'm in no ways an expert; my main writing talent is in writing stories and scripts.
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Epicaracacy Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Student Writer
So amazing Nullibicity the poetry that is, how you make it breathe the emotions you are letting us see, effortlessly.

You must get better :D because nothing is worse then feeling broken
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer

I've had this comment in my inbox for a while, and I apologize about not replying. I'll be honest in saying this left me speechless. You always give such lovely, uplifting words. I thank you! That, and I always enjoy hearing your opinion when you have the time to leave it.

 

Thank you! You're always such a bright and caring soul :rose:

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Epicaracacy Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014  Student Writer
My apologies for not replying sooner :)

You're welcome Nullibicity :) i hope to see more artwork from you soon :) have fun my dear
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YunaTrebel Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful. I wish that my journals were half as beautiful as this is. <3
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

Thank you, my dear. You are very kind...and in a painful way, I'm glad this could at least be beautiful: I think beauty makes the pain easier to look upon, yes? :tighthug: So thank you so very much for giving me your perspective. I really, deeply appreciate it :rose:

Best wishes, lovely! Have a fantastic day!!

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YunaTrebel Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I am sorry you are in pain. I can be insensitive without knowing. I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway. :/
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

Stop that thought right there! :giggle:

You are a sweetheart, and you in no way offended or hurt me. There was a part of me hurt to begin with, and sometimes I write with that part. So I apologize for not turning her off when replying--I usually do. So here, the fault lies with me. I apologize! You truly are an amazingly caring person, and I thank you so very much for taking the time that you have to write me such lovely words. Thank you with all my heart. It's because of people like you that I feel able to keep writing :tighthug::heart:

 

Keep smiling and may happiness come your way. If it doesn't... well, I'm here should you ever need a pair of ears :huggle:

Have a great day, dearheart. You deserve it :rose:

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YunaTrebel Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel as if we are the same person...but let me tell you something. If that part of you is hurting, then all of you is hurting. I am no stranger to pain. *hugs you* I have all the time in the work to talk to you and other people. You deserve an even better day and i hope that your holidays were wonderful!
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer

I apologize so much for the late reply. My inbox is flooded.

But let me say: you are immeasurable.. perhaps we are more akin to one another than I had originally thought. Thank you for sharing your time, and a bit of yourself, lovely. Your words just struck me speechless... in a good way...because your kindness is so great. Thank you. I only wish I could say more, and have it  mean something stronger... something correctly portraying of the emotion I'm feeling.

 

My holidays were grand. Completely! I spent them with my favorite person in the whole world :heart:. I hope yours went well, too! Thank you for spreading care and smiles wherever you go, too. I just feel the need to make sure you know how invaluable and precious that is... especially to me. Thank you. You, my dear, are a miracle. :tighthug::heart:

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holygreatgrandparome Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:(
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

... it's okay! I'll bounce back soon. :iconsadhugplz: It just takes time. I'm working on it. I'm giving my best. I promise.

 

How have you been, my dear? I've missed you and I've been thinking about you. (Feel free to note me any time!) :heart:

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holygreatgrandparome Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sure you will, you're very good at that :) I wish I could be so happy and optimistic all the time. Don't push yourself though, everyone deserves a bit of time to rest from everything!

Sorry, lately I've been very....uhmm...brain-dead? Yeah, that's a good word for it. Thus my unfortunate lack of deep responses or comments.

How have you been?

This is random, but you remind me so much of a friend of mine.....She is the absolute sweetest ever. Every single thing that comes out of her mouth is meant to make someone else's day a little better. I see lots of similarities :)
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer

Your messages always make me smile and feel loved. Thank you so much! :hug:

and don't be too hard on yourself: I actually used to be super pessimistic! I had to retrain my brain to try and see the brighter sides. It's still super hard sometimes, and it's really easy to slip back into negative thought patterns. You just have to keep trying! Eventually it gets easier! That, and I'm surrounded by so many loving and caring people (such as your beautiful self :heart:) that it just seems to be a conditioned response!

Well, obviously I've been super slow. We can be even? :giggle: but really: don't worry! Any comment from you is a gift. and I hope you know you really don't have to comment or favorite, etc. Just your support is enough for me! Be it by your thoughts or your actual words. It always just means so much!

I've been fantastic, actually. Recently, everything just seems so bright! I really love the new year, too, because it brings with it so many new opportunities and beginnings. It's such a positive and delightful thought.

How have you been, love?

 

Aw. What a compliment! Thank you. That just made my day. I'm so glad I can help, really. It makes me feel so happy just to help spread some love.

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holygreatgrandparome Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Haha, I love how optimistic and loving you always are. Keep it up!

I'm not really pessimistic, I'm just generally too — hmm, laid-back? No, a better word choice is hesitant — to talk about how much I appreciate the people around me. If I get riled up about something I'm passionate about, words seem to flow easy, of course, but otherwise I always feel like I have to strain and rewrite and make my words perfect before submitting the comment. I've decided to fix it, though. You're a huge inspiration Heart

Actually, I nearly always read your journals and deviations and such…and I promise I'm mentally commenting and taking in every single thing I read. I've just been too lazy and awkwardly quiet to put it into words. No más!
New Years is always a huge time for me :) hopefully I'll be able to live up to my new standards.

I've been great, really great! You? How has crazy, crazy life been for you?


I truly meant it :) I actually often catch myself accidentally quoting minor inside jokes between me and her, somehow thinking I'm talking to her. It's quite funny when I realize it, actually. If I ever say anything strange that makes absolutely no sense, assume that's what happened, please! Giggle
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PrincessKatydid Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You should never apologize! What you have been through is one of the most difficult experiences I can think of. Although I may not know the details, I know enough to know that you are incredibly strong-- much stronger than I could be if I were you. :heart:
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

You make me cry all the time... but with gratitude and appreciation. You are wonderful. I don't deserve such love. I really, really don't.

Nevertheless... thank you. Your words have given me confidence to keep going... I just feel so pathetic over letting myself be broken and then focusing on it. I need to stop. It's been a year, almost. I just sometimes have to wonder what's wrong with me? :giggle:

 

Thank you. Truly. You are far too kind and patient with me.

:heart:

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lsytirei Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i really loves this!!
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

I'm glad! Thanks so much for taking the time to leave a comment! I really, really appreciate that :huggle::heart:

 

Have a fantastic day! and don't forget to smile! You deserve to be happy! :rose: Best wishes, and thanks so very much, again!

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lsytirei Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
you are very sweet.
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:glomp: thanks so much! You seem like such a sweetheart, yourself.
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