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Unable to write,
Unable to feel.
Just who am I
Because I no longer know;
I've lost sight of myself.
My heart's been spirited away to dwell
In some strange land where all it feels
Is the icy cold.
Please breathe your life into me,
Let me feel your sullied warmth.
Please, just for the moment,
Stand beside me,
Because I feel lost in my utter stupidity;
How could I have believed the lies that left your lips?
Perhaps because they were the words I've always wanted to hear…
"You're pretty.
        You're worth it.
               Don't hurt yourself because I feel the pain.
                       I'll love you, and stand beside you, when everyone deserts you."

Well here I am alone,
Abandoned by your cunning self.
I have nothing further to say
Other than
"What a stupid, foolish girl I am."

I feel as if every day I become more of a stranger to myself. I find it almost impossible to write and that drives me mad. I don't think anyone can truly understand but writing and music were the two things there were there for me when everyone else left me. I just feel so distant from everything and with school coming up I'm stressing already, and not being able to write kills me. Literature is my outlet, and so not being able to vent my building emotions my mind turns to other... things. And I am truly fighting that "other thing".

Everything in this poem is exagerated but I was just happy I could turn out a poem... Have I lost my talent for writing? Did I even have it to begin with?
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TwyceInABluMoon Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2011   Writer
I feel like this all the time. T~T
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so sorry to hear that. You sound like you need a hug :huggle:

I hope you're okay :|
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TwyceInABluMoon Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2011   Writer
:tighthug:

I'm okay now. xD
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so glad to hear that!! :huggle:
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TwyceInABluMoon Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2011   Writer
Thank you. ^^
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
You are most certainly welcome! I hope everything is going well for you and stays that way :)
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TwyceInABluMoon Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2011   Writer
I sure hope that it stays this way. :]
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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SoundlessWhispers Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Don't make me bitch-slap you! (:D)
Of course you have talent! And it's totally ok that you can't write right now! I know that you don't like it because you cannot vent the emotions in a way that is comfortable for you, but you'll just have to find another way if poetry isn't working. Like, guitar or singing or just write down a couple words that mean a lot and then you can piece by piece compose them into a poem. Although it will take time you won't be forcing it and you might gain inspiration through those other means. :)
And please don't go to "other things". I'm barely staying away from it myself...so having you "THE INVINCIBLE NULLI!" (totally kidding here.... :/) give up is like having Superman push the entire Earth into the flames of the Sun.... Yes, it IS very dramatic and totally non-probable but it could happen! (like from the confines of my small, sad imagination.... :XD:

I loved the poem though, truly it is a work of art. I feel the same way... Bravo! :clap: :)
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. That means a lot to me. Really.

Oh I'm far from invincible... Very far. However I'm a pretty good fighter and I will do whatever means to avoid it. I just can't get that part of my mind that whispers it to me to shut up... it's driving me insane.

Thank you very much once again. This comment made my day :D
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