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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

lifelinesI fear the sound of sparrows
and the density of leaves
against dew-muffled blades
of grass,

and I'm drowning
in the sky.

My skin has learned how
to peel itself off
without causing a commotion
in my marrows or
even show the slightest hint
of pain,
and my heart has learned how
to hush the stars in their wake
and keep it all a secret.

There's a sea in my mouth
and I can't swim.

There are lifelines
cast like these and it will
all end with the same tragedy.

of seafoam thronesFrom Atlas’ hands she wept to me,
atop Africas and South Atlantics;

this is one situation unaffected by
ember eyes and windy lashes
(it has no anatomy).

You are sparrows stranded
in tiny crevices and cliffside love,
though you rebuke flight
in the fear of chipping feathers.

So what do you do?

You reach for my soul,
coveting flight with shaking
dainty arms…

and perhaps I’ll let you:
With flytrap lips and
glass shaped hips…
you are unfit for anything but
sight.

(But beauty isn’t everything)

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

weight of the worldand suddenly--
it was like the world decided that
it didn't want to carry its burden any longer,
so it shifted the weight
into the hollows of my bones
and told me that
it was my problem now.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

A Charmed LifeDoll-faced men and sinkholes, ancient tombstones
Leaves piled ankle-deep, falling down
Old wells, old graves, old friends lost
Pirate adventures in Neverland
Don't go into that barn

Ponchoboy and Rangergirl rise from the ashes
From the cold river, from afar
Remember before they were born, how they
Held hands and jumped into the world
Don't go into that school

Ladybugs, pennies, notes from the dead sun eclipse
Scrape the inside of your skull for clues
All the old dreams are still there, petrified
You are a rock of ages gibbering
Don't go into that factory

Why don't you kill yourself?“Why don’t you kill yourself?”
Is the voice that often pops in my head
To remind me I’d be better off dead.
As I sit in my two story house
I’m always alone and filled with doubt.
I take medications I don’t know why
These thoughts constantly go through my mind.
I remind myself I have friends who care
And my parents, well, try to be there.
Some would think I’m being over dramatic
Others will think these thoughts could only come from an addict
Or a psycho.
As I weigh the pros and cons
The commercials shut off, the main program goes on
So I turn my mind off and let the show play
And hope that I can be happy one day.

You Are BlindYou see a picture.
A girl with a smile on her face.

She looks beautiful.
She wasn't going anyway fancy.
But she wore her black make up.
And her brand new top.

But that isn't what I see...

Look a little closer...
Can't you see the tears that have just been wiped away?

Look a little closer...
Can't you see her right fist clenched,
Fumbling for her over strap bag?

Look a little closer...
Can't you see the left hand grip her long sleeve for dear life?

Look a little closer...
Can't you see her mind is running with thoughts tonight?

Look a little closer...
And maybe you'd have seen the warning signs....

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Dare to Dream

by ~Nullibicity, Sep 7, 2011, 9:43:48 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

_{So bravely envisioning goals within your mind,
those same goals that slowly change to dreams,
reflected in your eyes not just the aspirations
of a creative mind,
but of a dreamer.

The smallest of smiles,
as if to seal the deal...

already so eager to reach your destination,
with butterfly wings strapped to your back
and arms outstretched to soar.}

Dare to Dreamby ~Nullibicity

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

_{There is nothing more beautiful to me than looking at a child and being able to see their radiance shine through. I love to look at the ones not playing with their friends, but the loners who sit and stare at the sky with such an adoring look in their eye. I can relate, because I, myself, am a dreamer.

Dream big, and let the sky be the limit. Never forget to strive for what's important to you}

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~RenosGirl77 Jan 27, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Woo, yes!! XD Go for it with everything you've got, that's the attitude!! Thank you for giving y own creative impulses a kick-start!

Yeah, me too - they say that the quietest kids are always the most intelligent.

~Nullibicity Jan 27, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

It's the quiet ones you have to watch out for

Ha.

I am so glad I could offer such a "kick-start." Truly! I hold a special place for this poem within myself... and I am so ecstatic so many people could find it inspirational! You compliment me (as usual), and I thank you (as always)

~RenosGirl77 Jan 29, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Indeed!! *evil chuckle* XD

Thank you so much for doing so!! Your poetry is just so inspiring, it would be wonderful if you could publish some of it someday! (Sorry for sounding like a broken record, but I just can't help it it's true!! XD)

~Nullibicity Jan 29, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Actually your repetition is always appreciated. It gives me hope.
I do want to publish some day... however... I am still at war with the idea. I want to with everything I am, but I think I am frightened of how it will be received. Not that it would really get enough attention to be hated, but I fear it being ignored would wake me up to the fact I've still much to learn in writing. Too much, where I will wonder what I am even doing with a hardback book and a pen. I don't want to risk waking up yet. Perhaps when I improve my skills or gain more confidence I will publish. I really want to thank you, though: your suggestion has made a part of me rise up to challenge myself. I think I will be publishing far sooner than even I expect because of it.

~RenosGirl77 Jan 29, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

That's fantastic,I'm so very happy I could do so much for you. (I know I keep saying that - Repetition! Again! Aaagh! - but I honestly am. Giving you hope gives me hope, if that makes any sense at all!!

I completely understand what it's like to battle with self-doubts, how hard it is, but believe me you are an awesomesauce-amazing poet, and fully deserve to get your work published!! Don't let nobody tell you otherwise!! I really think your work could help a huge amount of people, as it has me and my friend. We all have a lot to learn about lots of things - but that doesn't mean what we've done - what you've written - so far is rubbish, far from it!!

"You can't please everybody. But the people who matter will understand, and those who don't understand don't matter."

I forget who said it, but it's something I always try to remember Better to be loved truly down to your blood, bones and soul by one person than superficially liked by 10,000. Sorry, I'm just a mine of useless quotes, huh? But really - please believe in yourself. You've reached out, touched and saved two people I know of on this earth - if you can do that you can do anything.

~LightOverpowers58 Dec 14, 2012 Student Writer

Gorgeous words, dearie!

This piece has been featured here.

~Nullibicity Jan 3, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

This feature both honored me and shocked me; I was really surprised. Thank you for bestowing such a wonderful gift upon me, and thank you for taking the time to look for and find this poem: it all means the world to me.
Thank you

~LightOverpowers58 Jan 7, 2013 Student Writer

Haha, it was no problem!

~SoundlessWhispers Oct 1, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

This was amazing!! Truly inspirational!!
Especially your description...!!
Eheh, well obviously I loved it.

~Nullibicity Oct 1, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you very much!!!

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